Tomorrow Is Nothing more
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Tomorrow Is Nothing More What could be more tragic
then being labeled mundane?
Are we not truly all the same?
All those clove cigarettes that you braved,
Pages of French faux poetry that were read
until the emotions were quite deadened,
Now you are nursing a sore head
The rain splatters out mad cadences,
like some demented riff on dry, cracked skin
Your male friend semi- unconscious,
Surrounded by his stomachs acidic remains
and an empty tin of his favorite chew
His juices splattered and stained down the front of you...
How do we sink to these trivial highs?
Pulling us down into your simpering lows
And when you recover, I guess this is goodbye
Need to discover some resemblance of control...
Skin on skin, hand in hand
how do we postpone the inevitable end?
The body chemistry was subtly personified,
if only responding on some chemical whim
A biological turn, so sullen and undignified,
On his quiet face is a toothy grin...
The blood rushes forth through the ears
like a Conch shell spitting out the salty sea
This beacon-like object is calling out,
Probably overdue for a change of scenery
Alabaster dressing gown is falling down
The smudge proof makeup has worn away,
The yellow and purple bruises are blossoming now
Kind of pretty, if only in some surreal way
No matter how many countless weekends lost
Give it another go, no matter what the cost
But maybe the price is too high to pay,
Tomorrow is nothing more than another day...
Mathias Thom
written 11/06/07
contest entry on allpoetry
( I made it to round 2 of 3...)
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POSTED BY MATHIASTHOM ON TUESDAY 6 NOVEMBER 2007 AT 04:39
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Thanksgiving drama...
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So, now that I'm closer to my Dad's, I don't have the slightest idea where I'm going to go for thanksgiving... Normally, I'd cook a turkey with stuffing,and the usual stuff, like homemade pumpkin pies,apple pies,etc... But usually, my sister would go home to my Dad's, while I watched the dogs at home... I don't mind the dog watching, I like to do the cooking for Thanksgiving... Here's the problems: Now that she married that piece of trash (think K-fed),she won't decide until he decides what or where they'll go... He still is located in Connecticut, even though my sister bought a house in Olean, New York... He refuses to look for a job in Olean area, because his job in Connecticut pays more... But he's not taking into account the cost of living here is cheap, compared to connecticut... (the real reason he won't completely move? All his friends are in Connecticut... He's a big pussy, if there ever was one...) If you get married, wouldn't you be with your wife? DUH! The sad part is she is going to support his pathetic ass, which is ridiculous... Now besides that, my uncle sent out an email inviting us to his house for Thanksgiving... It's basically a family reunion of sorts... The problem with that, my cousins children are the rudest, snots you'd ever not want to meet... Not to mention, they have issues with my sexuality(actually,ALL my relatives do...) I don't relish the thought of hearing fag comments muttered under their breath for a few hours... Because if it came done to that, I'd start WWIII at the table... God knows I've got enough ammunition on everyone there... Screw their fake ass 'family values' schtick... It's getting really old... Next up, my brother, who has spoken maybe 10 times in 30 years to me (I know, pathetic, isn't it?) He is the classic example of passive aggressiveness... He won't confront people in person... He does it all behind the scenes... He doesn't invite me to a Thanksgiving dinner, he sends my sister an email,asking me to come... He knows my email address... He's a pathetic ass... Why he can't directly ask me is a mystery,lol ! He's a freak. So, guess my best choice is to buy my own turkey,and stay here... Have a few vodka martinis, and hope the next year, I'll be celebrating Thanksgiving with my Life Partner...(whoever he may be...)
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POSTED BY MATHIASTHOM ON THURSDAY 1 NOVEMBER 2007 AT 18:38
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3 poems for your viewing pleasure...
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The Sum of Me'
I am darkness and I am light
I know what's wrong,
and I know what's right
And if this bipolar trek
Is one you do not wish to take
Then stay the hell away from me
I'm in touch with all my emotions
I am not fake...
I'm not porcelain or glass
I will not break
But I won't put up with the antics
of humanity, with a sheep-like mentality
Who are too scared to open up and relate...
Mathias Thom
written 9/30/07
'Castration'
Scent of citrus
Slender, alabaster tip
dancing along
sullen, impartial lips
A threshold to breach,
Mirrored castration
She lost control...
Mathias Thom
written 10/01/07
'Like Emeralds'
Beryl jewels that glimmer
closer to this mirror
An inspection that projects
another reflection
Skipping across the water
Like smooth, light stones
Gliding over the surface area
Slowly gathering inertia
Dropping from sight
Silent reflection so far below
Sinking beneath skin and bone
Nose wrinkles
Lips frown
Concentration broken
Not a word is spoken
Twin emeralds that shimmer and gleam
Lost in another brilliant daydream...
Mathias Thom
written 10/01/07
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POSTED BY MATHIASTHOM ON MONDAY 1 OCTOBER 2007 AT 02:40
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The World of Normal Boys
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The World of Normal Boys Scaling the wall to this world of normal boys
Where they always get the girl
and nothing upsets their perfect world
and the 'have nots' and the 'has beens'
are not seen in this manly dream
Where the colors are just slightly too bright
and 'All Temperature Cheer'
won't cover up these tarnishing stains for long
Just a quarter cup of bleach
Last nights sordid activities
are out of reach
Next weekends festivities
can be researched and planned
Privy to this world of normal boys
Where they adjust themselves in public
and measure their masculinity
by way of the lowly pubic hair
If there is nothing on top of your head
Well, you'd be better off dead
Go to church on Sundays and recite your prayers,
Mimicking like a parrot just to fit in...there
Don't glance around like your neighbors
Measuring up and weighing in
All for the sake of appearances
Don't you ever get tired,
trying to fit in?
There is nothing quite normal
about blatant hypocrisies
It's fine by them, but not for me
As long as no one gets hurt
It's never alright to be dragged through the dirt...
Mathias Thom
written 9/27/07 Took the book, ' The World of Normal Boys', by K.M. Soehnlein, and was inspired by it, or at least the title...
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POSTED BY MATHIASTHOM ON THURSDAY 27 SEPTEMBER 2007 AT 18:04
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some frightening verse...
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Turn On Turn on the television All those flashing bright images rush towards me in a depravity of sensory overload Buy this, can't live without it Losing sleep over things I must have: Ipods and flat screens and some scary old man advising me to view singles Like little pieces of sweetened meat left dangling off a hook Wiggle this way 'It's ok to look' Scramble away Time to change the channel, anyway Can't afford it? Well, that's no problem How about fifteen-hundred for a pay day advance? I can't read the fine print But how can I feel responsible with this cash flow rocketing through my veins? Walking through the garishly lit stores Viewing signs that implore to just buy more While some anorexic seventeen year old spritzes the cardboard applicator Waving it frantically through the air Trying to entice Wouldn't this cashmere sweater feel so nice Blanketing your supple skin? Always wanting what I do not have Nature must always be so fickle Is it Murphy's Law when an exposed flaw will siphon you right down to your pathetic last nickel? Mathias Thom written 9/26/07 The Inevitable Highlight Here I am world... Reduced to this situation Surrounded by a pack of artistic types Furiously sketching my nudity with chunks of charcoal Sweat pouring down their intense faces wondering what they see besides my breasts and what not This room toxic from the fumes of turpentine and endless thoughts of wanton lust and sexual feats which will never happen No, not even once in these miscreant mens lifetime As I sit here smirking Laughing silently to myself Gazing holes into their troubled souls Realizing there is nothing profound about the human condition... It's all lies and supposition Grandiose tales, with the odd impale Is this the inevitable highlight of such unremarkable lives? Mathias Thom written 9/26/07 this was a contest entry on allpoetry.com picture prompt: http://claybruster.deviantart.com/art/Golden-Girl-37150437That's it for now... Don't forget, Ghost Hunters is on tonight at 9 pm on the sci fi channel Americas Next Top Model is on at 8pm... This season looks to be filled with drama from these wannabe divas... Later... |
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POSTED BY MATHIASTHOM ON WEDNESDAY 26 SEPTEMBER 2007 AT 12:30
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Let's Go Cow Tipping!!!!!
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So, I responded to a yahoo local scene email I received... Looked up any glbt groups in the Olean, New York area, where I'm currently (stuck) er... living for the moment...
I found exactly 1 group in the area... It has I think less than 5 members,and from what I could tell, the last post was in 2006...
Yeah, it's fucking pathetic...
I'm so lonely out here,stuck in the middle of straightsville,where the only things to do for entertainment is cow tipping, maybe bowling...
I think I'll disembowel myself tonight with a spoon...
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POSTED BY MATHIASTHOM ON TUESDAY 25 SEPTEMBER 2007 AT 22:31
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So...
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I just recently installed Adobe's LightRoom 1.2... I messed around with it this evening, cleaning up some photographs I took at dusk in a cemetery by my house...
It was a little strange to be snapping pictures at dusk... But, I'm an avid follower of the show, Ghost Hunters... It's usually on Wednesdays on the sci fi channel... I wanted to see if I could capture any paranormal experiences...Or if I would just creep myself out with my overactive imagination...
Well, 2 hours and 77 photos later, I have about 5 different pictures which show some kind of paranormal activity,including a mysterious looking vapor at the top of a tree,and a few orbs by this tomb... The orb pictures were cool... My sister walked her 2 dogs while I was snapping pictures like crazy... Her one dog is staring at the 2 orbs by the tomb,which is kind of cool...
So, it definitely wasn't my imagination. Something was there, caught on film...
Anyway, if I can't figure out how to do the flash gallery upload thing, I'll just post the 5 suspect pictures, and let interested people check them out...
It definitely was a creepy experience...
Kind of gets ya in the mood for Halloween, doesn't it???
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POSTED BY MATHIASTHOM ON TUESDAY 25 SEPTEMBER 2007 AT 03:17
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Along The Way
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So, here's my latest poem, just written this evening:
Along The Way Why should I hide incognito?
Going to boldly express the love I feel
To hell with all the glaring and stares
They wouldn't last 2 seconds in my shoes
Does anyone stop you
when you turn to her and kiss?
But suddenly it's the 'gay agenda'
When 2 lovers express like this
And it makes my blood boil
It fuels my rage and anger
Pulling your children aside
Like they're in immediate danger
I'm frankly more frightened
of this poison atmosphere you perceive
Where you're in constant denial
and the majority of molestations
are done by straight men, not gays
Now you read these words
and vehemently shake your heads
Denial is a powerful aphrodisiac
Better check on your children
Sound asleep in their beds
The monster hiding in the closet
is your brother, their 'Uncle Fred'...
Now I'm not welcome anymore
in your beautiful, artificial home
You seem to be afraid I'll rub off
Maybe taint and sway your kids
So it's the infamous 'f- off'
Over nothing I have ever did
I was the one you turned to
When your dog was diagnosed with cancer
You cried yourself sick
After you had him put down
My arms sheltered your mourning grief
MY sweater wiped away the nonstop tears
I was the one you turned to
when you needed to unexpectedly leave town
I had grown attached to your new puppies
Didn't mind watching them at all
Yes, I was the one who honestly gave you advice
But apparently common sense had taken leave
Now you're trapped in an empty marriage
Hateful words triggered and directed at me
I never once turned away
See how this grief
caused my blond strands to turn grey?
Is there any honesty,truth or belief
Left somewhere inside that wrecked frame?
And it makes my blood boil
It fuels my rage and anger
How you've shut yourselves away
But now only in the process
You have become this stranger
Where is this loving family
that sadly abandoned me along the way? Mathias Thom
written 9/23/07
This is how it feels to labeled... How ignorant comments can literally destroy a family overnight... If you see yourself in these words, stop and honestly think for a second...Your actions and comments(whether real or imaginary) have an effect on the ones you supposedly love...
BTW- this is only partially drawn from personal experiences,so don't read too much into this...
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POSTED BY MATHIASTHOM ON MONDAY 24 SEPTEMBER 2007 AT 02:11
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I'm starting to...
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... work again using photoshop, my self portrait pictures, or whatever I snap with my digital camera...
I'll be uploading some new artwork today... So look for it, if you are so inclined...
Later...
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POSTED BY MATHIASTHOM ON SUNDAY 23 SEPTEMBER 2007 AT 17:32
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new name, same happy disposition
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Just to let everyone know, my new user name is mathiasthom... I pretty much stopped using wallflower67,since most people couldn't understand why I choose that name in the first place...Plus, I am not a woman, lol!
A 'wallflower' is another term for a shy ,withdrawn person, which basically sums me up..
However, I may be shy in person, but not in the blogging world haha...
If anything, I have too much to say...
If you like modern synthpop, don't forget to check out my latest tunefeed...(especially those who love 80's alternative music...)
Laterz...
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POSTED BY MATHIASTHOM ON MONDAY 17 SEPTEMBER 2007 AT 12:33
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